From Forest Dweller to a Deeper Mystic

I have been quiet on these pages. But, not absent...

I have been immersing myself in life fully. Deeply. Reconnecting with spiritual roots...

Several years ago, as my son prepared to go off to college, my life became much more simplified. This coincided with my walking away from an academic career. In succeeding years - he moved out and went to work. Now, he will return, after eight years, for a spell, and I prepare for that.

During these years, much has happened.

Since this year began, life has changed - maybe not radically - but it certainly seems to be so. There are changes everywhere to be noted - on both physical and spiritual planes...

When the docket of my life substantially cleared itself of many responsibilities, just a few years ago, I began to refer to myself as a "Forest Dweller." Now, it seems I am on my way towards becoming a "sannyasin" - or what I choose to define as a deeper mystic.

Let me explain...

In Hinduism, there are 4 stages to a person's life.

First, one is a student. Then one becomes a householder, with all that that entails. After that, children leave home, and one becomes a "Forest Dweller," a stage where one has the time to cultivate the spiritual life in a more dedicated way.

In time, one might become a "sannyasin" - or wandering ascetic - totally at the mercy of the compassion of others and the elements. This, is the life of truest simplicity.

Since dramatic changes occurred in my yoga community - both locally and globally - I find myself going very deeply within. I visit the river nearly every day. I resurrect spiritual practices I had neglected for years. I listen. Yes, very deeply. And every rustling of emerging leaves and animal that crosses my path - comes bearing a message. It is so evident to me in a way that it never was...

There are strong realizations that are emerging. Urgent voices now being heard. The voice of the Guru within - of the Divine - breaks through a tangle of what I now realize, were only illusions...

I am drawn to greater simplicity. And less attachment - to what was - and to whom I thought I was - to credentials. And even to all the roles I have recently played...

The slate seems to be wiping itself clean...

What I thought was my community, is in disarray. So the insight comes - it is no longer the time for community - but for communing more deeply with God...

Everything is an invitation to let go. And to take my own spirituality to the next level.

But, it is not about beginning again. It is instead about trusting. And being. Right now. Exactly where I am...

I have no idea where all of this is going, but in my heart of hearts, I know it is a gift. It is opening the door to greater freedom, and to becoming and being more fully who I really am.

I am - that I am. One with the Divine...

I wake up to that, much more deeply than I ever have...

Comments

Anonymous said…
Olga, My daughter has also just come home. It is a joy, but a dance of balance as well ... both of us getting to know each other's daily routines, learning to live together again! And that includes the dog and the cat too :) I feel blessed that she felt comfortable ocming home ... Enjoy! Sheila
Olga Rasmussen said…
Ah yes, an adjustment, but like you, I too, am looking forward to this stage. Blessings to you! Olga

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