Endings and Beginnings

I arise in the morning with the freshness of the day, and very much sensing the energy of a new month...

I sit in meditation, more deeply and longer than I have in weeks, and I am ready to re-commit myself to my path once again...

My day becomes consumed with painting a spare bedroom off of my home yoga studio - and I realize, that every time I am in the midst of major transitions in my life, I paint a room!

I recall a couple of years ago, when I was still very much in the throes of depression, sitting in an airport, and reading how the color of a room contributes very much to one's moods - its elevation as well as its descent into denser regions. I came home, and painted my bathroom the loudest, in my face, yellow that I could find - to tackle the depths of winter and the gathering storms of whatever darkness attempted to settle in my mind. I painted with the intent that this shade of yellow give voice to what I could not articulate in that moment. I willed it to assertively scream back to me, that there was more to life than whatever was holding me captive. This loud yellow would serve as a reminder that everything shall one day pass...

But today, I choose a lavender color to paint this room, and it is delicate, and exquisite, and lovely - all wrapped into one very appealing hue...

I continue to let go and set boundaries and create space for something that is coming - I know not what - only that it has to come...

I delight in how beautiful the room looks as I finish, and my heart smiles as it recalls the evening Facebook post by a friend acknowledging, that "It is all shri - and its all up to me!"

Yes, I look at this room, and this new month - and realize it is shri - it is beauty, and abundance, and goodness - and it is my choice to see it, and create it everywhere - in every encounter and aspect of my life...

This exercise in painting, invites patience, a hard virtue for me to embody, but it also invites divesting, moving on and forward, lightening up, and creating space...

For the first time, in a long time, I feel more energetic, and I invite this month and its gifts into my life...

And just for today, I created a thing or two of beauty...

Comments

Knitting Yogini said…
Lavender for love, loveliness, lightness, loft -- just what the doctor orders for successful change. Love to you, my friend.
August 1, 2010 at 3:12 PM
Olga Rasmussen said…
Oooh! I really like that - thank you so much for that insight!
Blessings,
Olga
August 1, 2010 at 3:16 PM
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