Aligning with Grace

In so many ways it feels like a new life to me, after surgery. And a new life is best expressed in new sounds... A lifetime ago, I trained as a classical guitarist, starting to play at 9, taking my first lessons at 12, and continuing them in college, where I minored in music in addition to my two majors, Religious Studies and Psychology. For many years, I was absorbed in practicing, writing music, and playing at the various colleges and universities I attended, and where I also worked in Campus Ministry. But in my late twenties, some time after having my son, all that stopped, since I really no longer had the time to play. So I did something radical. Since I did not feel I could adequately practice, I quit playing altogether, and hung my guitar on the wall. And there it remained, until a dear friend of mine, a former musician, simply looked at me and said to me in horror: "You've hung your guitar on the wall? Like a piece of art?" So, I took it down and made a foray or tw...

Life is filled with ordinary moments which we notice, when we allow life to slow down to a crawl. Life these days is filled with long walks, reading several newspapers from cover to cover - yes - the old fashioned way - in print of all things - and time is also spent losing myself in novels, and enjoying fine wines and home cooked meals. Life is filled with interacting with friends and loved ones, either online or through visits, or phone calls, or other ways. Sunday, I met dear friends at a concert. That was the most dramatic thing I'd done since surgery. I went to hear Mindy Smith , whose music my friends and I had been following for several years. Today I came across this quote from Rumi, which seemed so appropriate for this time in my life right now: "Observe the wonders as they occur around you. Do not claim them. Feel the artistry moving through, and be silent." Each day, is an opportunity to observe the wonders that occur around you, through you and others - in th...

I have a dear friend whose birthday it is today. She signs everything she writes, every card, every note, every email, simply, with "Blessings." It is an offering of her heart. Years ago, she gave me this beautiful little "Blessing" prayer that I laminated and fixed to my laptop, where it greets me every morning. I have shared this acrostic poem before on this blog, yet it bears repeating again, from time to time: Blessings B e present. L et the day flow with grace. Be flexible. E xpect nothing. Give thanks for everything. S urrender. Be open. S peak only kindness. I mpart only love. N ever forget that you are not alone. G ive so that you may receive. S ee goodness in yourself and others. It is such a simple prayer, but a beautiful reminder of how we should live our lives, each and every day. Today, I honor my dear friend, and lift her up in my prayers. I will try to embody and reflect this simple prayer. Yesterday, when I called to wish her a happy birthday, one da...

Where do you most experience the pleasure of wonder? Does a few stolen, furtive, and sacred moments with a beloved soul friend present you with this gift? Or, does a cup of coffee in your favorite Parisian cafe elicit sweet memories and moments of wonder? Does the experience of immersing yourself in a treasured book take you places you never dreamed of, and where you become lost in your imagination? Right before my surgery, a dear friend came and visited me. She is not someone I get to spend a lot of time with. But it does not matter. The connection is deep... Over cups of tea, we shared secrets of the heart and and soul, and she presented me with a series of books she dearly treasures and loves - The No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency - by Alexander McCall . She thought it was time for me to befriend these wonderful and gracious characters she has come to know during my time of recovery. I have to tell you, my friend is very wise. I would never have voluntarily chosen to read these books,...

"All shall be well. And all shall be well. And all manner of things shall be well!" ~ Julian of Norwich This wonderful saying by J ulian of Norwich has been buzzing around in my brain this last week. A dear friend often quotes it to me, and did so before my surgery, and in its aftermath as well... Many years ago, in 1988, I traveled to Norwich, England, to sit in the cell of Dame Juliana, as she is often referred to. We actually, do not know "Julian's" real name. All we know is that she was an anchoress, and was literally walled in, almost as if buried alive, in the Church of St. Julian. Unfortunately, the original church was destroyed during World War II. But it has been reconstructed, and I enjoyed the time I spent in Julian's sacred space. In the 14th century, an era nearly as tumultuous as our own, Julian had a series of visions which she called her "showings." These were written down, and her writings are regarded as the first writings of any...

Those of you who have read this blog over the years already know, that over the course of a couple of years, not so long ago, I found myself in transition and deep depression, and I went down to the river to sit, meditate, and pray, and eventually to paddle in it. Over the course of that time, the river taught me many lessons, until it no longer needed to do so. This morning, I arose early, and was back on the Potomac River paddling, for what would perhaps be, the last time until the fall. Normally at this time, the hydrilla are growing quite wildly and overtaking and choking the river. Yet, for some reason, they have not made a noticeable appearance thus far. The river was as calm as it could possibly be. There was not a ripple or wave, or discernible current of any kind. I pushed off the boat launch area in "Grace," my trusty kayak, and paddled effortlessly to the Maryland side. Halfway into my journey across, a motorboat cruised by, and I soon found myself tossed about by...

We all have a song in our hearts... What is yours? Each one of us moves to a different drum... Each one of us dances to a unique rhythm... Yesterday, I wrote about a homily I heard on Sunday based on the the Parable from the Gospel of Matthew on the "Sower and the Seed." The homilist told a wonderful story based on a YouTube video clip where a guy finds a stethoscope on the ground and proceeds to place it on all sorts of objects, and a unique song pertaining to the object in question bursts in his ear. For example, when he places the stethoscope on a light pole, he hears the song "Lean On Me." At the very end, after the guy in the clip seems to have exhausted all kinds of objects, he puts the instrument over his heart. What do you suppose he hears? Almost immediately, the "Hallelujah" from Handel's Messiah bursts all over the place. It is such a magnificent piece, that King George II arose from his seat when he heard the chorus. Since then, the tra...